Friday, October 12, 2001 11:39 p.m.

Damn. Something I noticed a few months ago although it was probably like that for years....

My collar bones are not equal~!!! My right collar bone is much more prominent than my left one~!!! I think there is something wrong with my left shoulder. It cracks every time I rotate it...but I thought it didn't matter since it didn't hurt. -_-;; Yes. It is a good day that you find another deformity in yourself. Indeed.

Thursday, October 11, 2001 07:52 p.m.

Some gossip I heard in class today. The tv boy broke his nose playing freezbee (sp?). -_-;;;;;;; He drove himself to the Emerg dept while his friends kept on playing. On having asked whether someone should go with him, his roomate said, "Nah. He said he can drive himself." -_-;;;

Tuesday, October 9, 2001 10:01 p.m.

Talked to tub boy. So it's over. *whew~!* ^___^;;;; It ended nicely and I'm very relieved and happy.

Coanteen. Despite what you say, I don't think I'd feel normal kissing new people every day. And don't worry. I'll *try* to have fun. (Yes. I know I have an un-fun(?) personality... ;_;) I'm fine with kissing people with whom I go on dates. It's just that I shouldn't kiss people whom I'm not quite sure if I'm "dating". I don't think the evil boy and I *ever* had "dates". And that felt kinda wrong...

And yeah. I think he's ready to settle down... He's...28? 29? I don't know. He's one of those people who says "I wanna do family meds because I want time to settle down and have kids." I know you must think he's more disgusting than before, Coanteen. ^^;;;; It's over anyway. ^___^

I'm swinging back and forth between two extremes. I'm confused. Don't mind me. ^___^

Tuesday, October 9, 2001 01:28 p.m.

Came home for lunch. I feel alive now after my belated morning coffee.

Coanteen. The tub boy denies any interest in you. -_-;;; What should I do with him? Yesterday, he was like..."when did you decide that you like me?" and I was like..."Mmmm. I don't know. Do I like you?" Honestly, I'm not interested in him at all but I couldn't tell him that. Don't want to completely crush him. Or do I?

I guess when you kiss a person (or allow him to kiss you), he would expect that to mean that you like him. That's the way I used to be too (and I think it's supposed to be that way). Except that my last thing with the evil boy just muddled up my brain. He kinda tried to brainwash me into thinking that sex was meaningless... and although I disagree with that, I guess I was influenced to some degree. I honestly didn't really mean much when I kissed the tub boy. And then he started asking "Would your parents be upset if you told them you started dating..you know... a Caucasian?" -_-;;;; What to do.....

I guess I should tell him that I'm confused and don't want to get involved any further before the situation becomes totally idiotic. -_-;;; I'm gonna go back to my old self - before the evil boy. Yes. I think kisses *should* be a fairly significant thing. I won't give those away just because I'm bored and lonely again.

Monday, October 8, 2001 01:22 p.m.

Shame based learning. That's what we have in our program. You feel stupid so you study. Unfortunately, it doesn't work for shamelss students like myself. Ah. When will I do that write up that's due tomorrow? Somebody put me out of my misery...

Potluck yesterday. Thanksgiving turkey dinner. It was good...except that the girl put the stuffing in the microwave and forgot to take it out until the dinner was done.

Saturday, October 6, 2001 02:26 a.m.

Coanteen. ^^ I think the tub boy likes you. ^___^ You must have made a lasting impression when you last met... He was asking about you and whether you had a boyfriend...and if you'd be interested in him. ^^;;;;; I told him he'd probably have to get a sex change for you to even consider him. ^^;;;; We watched 'The American Beauty' together. I've never seen it before... mmm... it was weird...but not *all* that weird. It was good though. ^^

Tuesday, October 2, 2001 05:43 p.m.

Skipped morning classes today. Again. -_-;; but over 30 hours of class a week is too much! And I think I'm still tired from the weekend...watching too much anime with Coanteen. A whole bunch of anime I downloaded over the weekend is just not playing on my computer. -_-;;; Gotta re-download. Or maybe it's the after effects of the recent viral infection.

My tutor is intimidating. To a great degree. -_-;;; Our program is stupid. Majority of the patients wee see have heart problems...but we learn about circulatory system 2 years into the program. How am I supposed to know anything already? -_-;;; I don't know the differences in physiologic causes between stable and unstable angina. I don't know the differences in treatments... I know I'm stupid. No need to ask detailed questions on the topic I haven't even learned to make me feel even more stupid. --;;

Sunday, September 30, 2001 01:27 a.m.

Meta. You're sick, eh? ^___^ Kakakaka~!!! I laugh at your sufferings!!! I'm sorry. -_-;;;; I won't do it again.

Do you know how to get a page to open with full-screen? -_-;;;; Because my layout looks sucky unless you see it fullscreen.... Gaaah...

Saturday, September 29, 2001 08:40 p.m.

archiving. testing. changing layout.